what is this weather? syracuse is flexing its acting muscles, all pretending it's spring and stuff. but it isn't! and the daffodils are coming up and I want to scream at them, to tell them no! get back down there in the warm safe earth. it isn't time yet, you're going to die, you poor beautiful emptyheaded flowers. but they keep sprouting just the same.

how strange! I recently joined the eve 6 street team, and just yesterday received in the mail three tee shirts, about ten poster flats, stickers, car decals.. I don't even know where to store this stuff until I can put it up around town :). but isn't it great? I love all this free stuff :).

you and jobs! they're falling into your lap while I can't find one with a thirty foot pole. Of course, generally you don't look for jobs with a thirty foot pole. This might be the source of my problem. at any rate, can I have whatever job you discard? a "free job" ticket of sorts?

an interesting occurence has taken place in the last few days. Have you had days where you just wish that anything that comes out of your mouth could be put back in? everything I've said in the last two days has just been stupid awkward talk. To everyone. I find myself wanting to slap my own forehead twenty times a day. I'm going insane. I just had an episode of it - I had to call my riding instructor because I had signed up to ride for this semester and then I hadn't ever set up my time, and now it's so far into the semester that I was scared to call but I had to because I've already paid and I want desperately to ride. and she's not friendly and I was just stupid and awkward. but I'm riding. phew. and what's worse is that the handset on my phone isn't working so I have to use the speakerphone, which luckily is a good speakerphone, but still. it sucks to think that the people in the rooms next to me can hear my phone conversations. and it's a real bitch to call people other than, say, friends or family. because of course you always know if you're on speakerphone. *sigh*. so it's been one of those days. for a few days.

i'm off to clean my room and attempt to be productive. :) more later.

that darn cat,
* jess